Category: life

Babbling about PPD

I am struggling greatly with postpartum depression. I feel as if I need some rest and mothering right now. I haven’t had a break since I had the baby, except when I was in the hospital.
I feel because I was so ill this pregnancy and stayed home A LOT, that I have been forgotten. I rarely attended church and haven’t gone to small group.
I can’t emotionally deal with other people’s issues and some questioning.
Someone told someone that I left my church and attend another church. I find it crazy how little rumors start and run rampant.
I know that I need to be surrounded by positive godly people until I heal from inside out.
I always have such a hard time after having my babies. I know it’s just a season.
I have some great children and I am so thankful for ALL of them!

Tomorrow is a new day!
This is the day The Lord hath made!
I will rejoice and be glad in it!

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I cant sleep

Earlier today while trying to shop for groceries, I tried to lift John in his bucket car seat from the cart and tore a ligament in T3. I am taking pain medicines but still hurt too bad to sleep. I need muscle relaxants but do not want to quit nursing the baby just for a medication. Especially since he has diary allergy and reflux.

My baby is a giant who has grown too fast for me to acquire strength to lift him.

My x-rays also showed me having osteoporosis in the spine and scoliosis. I return for an appointment in two weeks.

This post may not make sense since it is 1am.

Good Night!

My Wednesday Was Busy

First,I took girls to school. Ugh, The van  did not want to start. Next, after dropping off the twins, I drove to the closest Autozone. The sweet young woman checked my battery and said it looked fine but low. She wanted to ??charge it for an hour?? or something like that. I told her I needed to go and comeback, I was scheduled to drop by the Home Health care to let them download data from John’s apnea monitor. After the data download I returned to the same Autozone.

This time a different woman helped me. She seemed very knowledgeable. She brought out her machine to test my battery. She never touched my battery, she took one look at my battery and said ,”It’s bad!” “Good batteries don’t leak.” She told me to go to Advanced Auto which is where my previous battery was from, and see if I had a warranty. I checked to see if I did and I did not have a warranty. I also stopped at another Autozone for a battery check and was told my battery is low and should be replaced.

So I called AAA and had them replace my battery. Now we are truly riding smooth again.

A new day

I awakened this morning determined to be positive. I took the girls to school, came home long enough to have a bowl of oatmeal, returned to pick up the girls, took Kayla to work, returned the rental after I filled the gas tank. Cooked some dinner, took Kara to work but had to take Kayla’s car, my van started but cut of then started but battery light came on. Returned home to finish cooking dinner. Picked up Kayla after she called to tell me she was done at work. Had to explain why I was driving her car and when the van would be fixed. Worked more on dinner, had the boys eat, load the dishwasher and cleaned kitchen. I had planned to make cupcakes but did not.
I picked up Kara at 11. Then we stopped and grabbed few things at Bi-Lo. I came home, and told boys to sweep floor and go to bed. So I am typing my day on my phone before falling asleep.

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I’m still here

I miss blogging. I can not totally blame my lack of blogging on my new baby or lack of sleep. I have been on my private Facebook page a lot uploading pictures and updating statuses. John is doing rather well and becoming a “juicy” baby.

 

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Poor fellow is quite fearful of flash photography!

With every birth and miscarriages I have suffered with postpartum depression. I tend to withdraw and not want to talk to anyone. I usually think I am whiny and negative. I can’t stand that type of behavior especially in a grown woman.

I decided yesterday that I want to begin documenting life again. If I am disgusted by my posts I can always delete them.

This past week has been overwhelmingly busy with sending oldest two back to college. Then haven’t my fridge go out and losing lots of food from it and having some milk explode. we lost power a few days later, due to some thunderstorms. My van broke down Friday. It was a belt that broke and had to be replaced along with the water pump. John has reflux pretty bad and this was a rough week for him. The pediatric gastroenterologist added another medicine to the one he is taking already. My almost 3 month old baby is 15 pounds and 25 inches long! 

We start Classical Conversations again in one week. 

We have had a summer of birthdays beginning with Jon’s on May 16, Jesse May 21, Ronnie May 26, David June 16, Noah July 2, Mine July 3, the girls July 24. Busy Busy Busy! 

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I am tutoring this fall so I will update weekly our Classical Conversations blog.

My eldest son graduates homeschool high school this year, so it is a busy year!

Maybe I’ll update more another time.

 

This is the Day The Lord Hath Made:

This is the day The Lord Has Made

We will Rejoice and be glad in it!

We Excitedly Welcome

JOHN RUSSELL WARREN

Born May 16,2012 at 7:04PM  7LBS 1oz 20.5 IN

We are overjoyed to have him here at last!

Love Ron,Angie,Kara,Kayla,David,Daniel,Samuel,Noah & Jesse

Sunday Afternoon Antics:

I am having a time getting anything done between the overwhelming nausea and the back contractions. I feel as if my spine will split down the middle in two with every contraction. Getting a bit tired because I am not sure if I need to be doing something to help baby rotate his spine away from mine or if I should walk more or what. Seriously lacking wisdom today.

I don’t think I am in labor because I can lay down and go to sleep for a few hours and only awakened by maybe one contraction.

I need to go get groceries and return to manic cleaning. I may even drop into the laundromat to do a load of dirty clothes so they do not pile up.

No labor yet, having “twinges”…

I’m having “twinges” that are somewhat regular but I don’t think it is labor. Not yet anyways 🙂

So I am cooking right now. Then I will shampoo my hair, it is quite unruly at present.

I plan to vacuum the living room and clean my room.

Then I will go re-pack my bags and check my list.

I don’t think I have enough food in my refrigerator to leave those at home while I go away for a couple of days when labor is really here. I need another day before I really labor.

Maybe a trip to the grocery store for a few more easy stuff. I may if I have time try to toss together baked chicken casserole with dressing and cream of something soup in it.  Maybe grab a few more loaves of bread and butter. I already bought milk Friday because the boys have been flying through chocolate milk, well….. milk period… Lately!