October 28,2011 Ramblings

Working on returning to blogging and other things that I find relaxing and comforting. I don’t know how to adjust to this new schedule yet. It is taking me awhile to catch up on housework. Seems like I barely maintain, let alone catch up. I am learning to let go of my perfectionism these days. Listening more to God and my body and resting. I did get up at 330am to do dishes that one of my children did not do last night. I noticed all the lights on last night and got up to turn the off. I am trying to lower all

of our bills but it seems to be a lone venture. Our power bill has been crazy expensive and I feel we are wasting resources that we currently do not have.

Our water bill has also become exorbitantly expensive so I feel we must have our utility company check for water leaks as soon as possible.

Classical Conversations has been wonderful for my boys and I. Last year this time I was quite stressed and feeling a failure as a homeschooling parent. I met a wonderful group of ladies. It was such a God match. I could not have planned it better myself. We all have a love for God and an overwhelming desire to please HIM and do HIS will, regardless of what is happening around us. I feel so blessed that God has sent me to them and them to me. Most of my self doubt in the homeschooling department has left. We give one another accountability and fellowship of common minds.

I would like to start a Challenge group for my boys. I am not sure if that is too much for me yet or not. I have gotten better at saying no, when, at one time, I used to take on too much. I need to find out what the title of Director of Challenge group entails and also figure out which or if I am interested in being a Challenge tutor. I am trying to work “catch up” with my older boys. I want to teach their level stuff but also give them Foundations learning too. All of it make so much sense and is so important. My eldest son is not interested at all in Latin. People fail to realize the roots can teach us the meanings of so many English words and helps you learn any other foreign language much much easier.

No time.

I haven’t had time to blog.
R has new job, starts on Tuesday.
I have so many things to get done on my to do list before starting school in a week.
We have one vehicle, so I had to make a schedule that I stick to strictly. I have had to get littles going to bed much earlier.
I will be rising at 430am instead of 530am this year. One hour is a big deal. I will be okay, I just need the little boys in bed early and my older kids need to be quiet all lights out by 1000pm and no later.

I have a camera full of pictures I need to download. I have a few post I have written in my notebook while waiting at the doctor’s office for my appoinment

I spoke with the bank, some how they will work out payments with us to keep us from loosing our home.

Today we are supposed to be going to a reunion a a church we attended years ago. Me and the older children are going, R is staying home with the littles. I would rather stay home, I am too tired to go anywhere. I despise feeling so tired. The hematology/oncology office will call and set up an appointment for me to spend the day at the hospital receiving an iron treatment. I told the Friday is more convenient because my daughters do not have class on Friday. They start Fall semester this week. We are waiting for Kayla also to be scheduled with her new job. She is supposed to receive two weeks training.

My days will be long. David’s cross country practice will be in the afternoons now instead of mornings, like it has been the past month.

Lots of my home school books have started selling on Amazon.com under the name SimplyFreeLife. I am trying to sell all of my books that I don’t use or do not plan to use, at least any time soon.

Going to rest a moment before I get dressed.

 

A Morning Call

The Agency called R and told him, he passed the background test. He goes in Wednesday for a drug test and should be able to start work on Tuesday. He will be trained on first shift working 6am till 2pm. I am working on getting my little people into bed by 7pm. I am also trying to get my school planning done up through December 2011.  We are excited, now trying trying to work with a company to prevent foreclosure on our home!

Blessed

As one God has blessed with a home, my duty is to create and maintain a
space that honors God, nurtures the spirit, enhances growth, and ministers to
others. My delight is to enjoy the home I’ve shaped and the sense of
accomplishment that comes from obedience.
 – Donna Otto

VBS stirs up a mixed bag of emotions.. miscellaneous post?

The children Sam and Noah have enjoyed their week of VBS. Friday concludes the week with a fun family filled event. I shall upload soon pictures of the decorations and some of the boys 🙂
The girls enjoyed volunteering to teach and such. The little boys enjoyed the festivities.

We have been praying for the children who attend. We found out on day 2, many of the children who attended were starving. Their parents work,full-time minimum wage jobs, all day. These sweet young children attended VBS starving. They practically inhaled their food and looked for more. We packed food and sent it home with them. Our church runs a food pantry, I’m am not sure if it is because of hard times or vacations, our church’s food pantry has run low. I feel a wee part responsible for this.
R hasn’t worked since May, so I have not bought any extras or contributed to the food pantry.
I have a fear of running out of food and worried my kids are starving. I have also feared becoming homeless. I am trying to believe, God will really take care of us, HE promised He will in HIS word. God sent us to help provide for these hungry children. He has someone, who will give my husband a job, or provide for us in some way.
I became really desperate one day. I have been filling job applications and having job interviews also. For me to return to work as a registered nurse, I must first take a refresher course (roughly $600), due to the amount of time I have been away from working in the hospital. I must also retake classes for my advanced cardiac life support certification. I let those expire years ago because of the cost and also, I had no plans to return to work with small children. I found out I can teach a classical conversations class to help me pay for my children’s enrollment.(Our classical co-op) I need to work nights so I may teach the children during the day. Doing non-nursing work will make it difficult. Requiring me to work more hours to make enough to pay the bills and catch up on payments.
I am contemplating making a page to list ALL of our school curriculum books,that we are not using, for sale. I will take pictures of them with a description and maybe IBSN’S. I will try to figure out paypal and set up a link for book payment and mail books via media mail, unless other specifically requested. All of the books are not current editions.

I also need to revamp my resume.

I feel like a displaced, misplaced homemaker, I am going to try and stay encouraged.

Maybe some people are praying for us.

God will meet our needs!

This one handed typing is irritating, going to lay sleeping Jesse in his bed right now!

Ahhh much better.

Well I guess I should go to bed also.
A friend from church, whom one of my girls babysits for,gave us an invitation to throw a pool party for the twin’s 19th birthday. So I shall be waking in a few short hours, to get things done Friday morning. I will need time to get all the little boys cleaned up and ready for the VBS festivities Friday evening.I am unsure if my husband or older boys are coming with. So I will have my hands full. I will set my coffee maker to brew at 7am and start my crock-pot shortly thereafter.

Handsfull

I really needed to read this, inspired by Jen B.; Handsfull Tuesday; blog today. I have had much time to ponder lately about how we are raising our children. My husband was laid off last year and has worked various odd and temp jobs. Everyone tells me to go to work and let my husband stay home and raise the kids. This is not his calling to be a housewife or should I say house husband. Neither is it my calling to be a fulltime breadwinner. I do not currently have the physical stamina to handle those 10 to 12 hour shifts away from home then come home to do my work. My husband helps with things around the house sometimes but it is not his gifting. Planning meals, shopping for groceries,sticking to a budget, making sure the little kids are eating at least 3 balanced meals and several snacks,bathes,storytime and going to bed at a decent early hour. Even when I work part time, my children suffer, our relationships suffer. I am just to tired to care after having such a physically and mentally demanding job and come home and have anything left for my family.

It was a blessing for me to read Martin Luther’s works “Treatise on Good Works.”   I really need to read a see sometimes what my job really is. Why I feel peace at home, even though it is a really hard job and people accuse you of doing nothing. I take seriously raising these future citizens up in the admonition of God. I have only read half today but I plan to reread this weekly as a reminder of the importance of raising these children properly.

Memes

I have been blog surfing looking for memes of the day. Hoping to get me out of this melancholy state that I am in. There are so many to chose from. I plan to post tomorrow for Kristen’s Food  Waste Friday.

I have decided to seriously look for something daily that makes me smile and capture a photo of it if possible.

I realized today that it has been at least a month since I have attended church. I burn copies of Sundays’ services from our church. Today, I had 3 weeks of Sundays to work on. I just haven’t felt well. I am usually a people person. I have not wanted to talk. It seems to deprive me of energy these days. It also can be lonely. It’s strange, I  really would not mind company. I just don’t feel like talking. I guess it is a stage of grief. I don’t really know. I would like to be out of this “funk” soon.

Back to memes…. I will post my plans when I figure out which ones more suit me and will be fun and not so much of a chore.

MY Prayers

I am praying for and believing for the blessing of gainful employment for Ronnie. A place that told him he could work for them, instead rehired a person who recently quit to try out another job and found they did not really like it. We are praying for a near to home job since we only have one car now and want to save on gas unless a farther away job would pay enough to cover the gas bill round trip.

The girls are also looking for jobs to work part-time over the summer.

I am desperately in need of finding out what is going on with my blood. Either to be healed naturally or by something the doctors give me. It is really difficult having an energetic mind and not the body to match it. I see things that need to be done and I really want to do them. I sit a lot and rest because I have to, not because I want to.

I have some thing I am selling on ebay and Craigslist to pay bills. Praying for sells to go smoothly, easily and safely. I know God will take care of us. I am working hard to do whatever I can. Including keeping R supplied with resumes to take with him job hunting.

Blessing

My daughter Kayla has been a huge blessing for me this weekend by attacking a huge mound of laundry. I have been taking it easy this week since the birth of my baby. My hemoglobin is low also, so I walk around quite dizzy. I am having to arise slowly so I do not feel my heart beating in my head. I am supposed to get an iron infusion asap. After the afterbirth bleeding has completely ceased.

I am sitting right now planning to fold a pile of my clothes that are beside me.

Week of May 1st,2011

This week was Teacher’s appreciation week at Noah’s school. David went to open gym this week with his bball players.

I attended Mommy and me muffins with Noah at his school.

Muffins and Mommy

The week was really busy with planting and cooking and grocery shopping and laundry, you know every day stuff in a large family household.