VBS stirs up a mixed bag of emotions.. miscellaneous post?

The children Sam and Noah have enjoyed their week of VBS. Friday concludes the week with a fun family filled event. I shall upload soon pictures of the decorations and some of the boys 🙂
The girls enjoyed volunteering to teach and such. The little boys enjoyed the festivities.

We have been praying for the children who attend. We found out on day 2, many of the children who attended were starving. Their parents work,full-time minimum wage jobs, all day. These sweet young children attended VBS starving. They practically inhaled their food and looked for more. We packed food and sent it home with them. Our church runs a food pantry, I’m am not sure if it is because of hard times or vacations, our church’s food pantry has run low. I feel a wee part responsible for this.
R hasn’t worked since May, so I have not bought any extras or contributed to the food pantry.
I have a fear of running out of food and worried my kids are starving. I have also feared becoming homeless. I am trying to believe, God will really take care of us, HE promised He will in HIS word. God sent us to help provide for these hungry children. He has someone, who will give my husband a job, or provide for us in some way.
I became really desperate one day. I have been filling job applications and having job interviews also. For me to return to work as a registered nurse, I must first take a refresher course (roughly $600), due to the amount of time I have been away from working in the hospital. I must also retake classes for my advanced cardiac life support certification. I let those expire years ago because of the cost and also, I had no plans to return to work with small children. I found out I can teach a classical conversations class to help me pay for my children’s enrollment.(Our classical co-op) I need to work nights so I may teach the children during the day. Doing non-nursing work will make it difficult. Requiring me to work more hours to make enough to pay the bills and catch up on payments.
I am contemplating making a page to list ALL of our school curriculum books,that we are not using, for sale. I will take pictures of them with a description and maybe IBSN’S. I will try to figure out paypal and set up a link for book payment and mail books via media mail, unless other specifically requested. All of the books are not current editions.

I also need to revamp my resume.

I feel like a displaced, misplaced homemaker, I am going to try and stay encouraged.

Maybe some people are praying for us.

God will meet our needs!

This one handed typing is irritating, going to lay sleeping Jesse in his bed right now!

Ahhh much better.

Well I guess I should go to bed also.
A friend from church, whom one of my girls babysits for,gave us an invitation to throw a pool party for the twin’s 19th birthday. So I shall be waking in a few short hours, to get things done Friday morning. I will need time to get all the little boys cleaned up and ready for the VBS festivities Friday evening.I am unsure if my husband or older boys are coming with. So I will have my hands full. I will set my coffee maker to brew at 7am and start my crock-pot shortly thereafter.

4 thoughts on “VBS stirs up a mixed bag of emotions.. miscellaneous post?

  1. You are dealing with some tough issues, and I can relate. I am praying that God will lead you and provide ALL of your needs–physical, spiritual, and emotional. May you know without a doubt what His will is and courageously follow it. There is no job more important than that of mama.
    –Sheila 🙂

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    1. Thank You Sheila! I agree, Mom job is very important. I feel if I return to work I will be neglecting my children in some way shape or form. Especially when school begins. My college aged daughters will be in school all day. If I work nights I will be tired and need to sleep awhile before teaching my children. I won’t really have energy to be a mom,cook, keep my home clean. My husband helps occasionally around the house, the children all have chores, things would still not get done without me keeping it together. My reacting is not from something I felt God told me to do. It is from fear, which is not from God. It is from me dwelling on bills, what others are saying about whether I am really trying to help my family. So many have said I could find work fast..Nurses are always needed. It is not that simple once you have been home five years, you can not just pop back into work. All institutions in North Carolina require you to take a Nurse Refresher course through AHEC from Chapel Hill School of Nursing. So I am feeling whatever job I take now will take more of my time for less money. It is a quagmire.

      I NEED to be still and hear from God and not my fear. It is difficult.

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