Week of May 8th,2011

We could not find the baby’s heartbeat or see it on ultrasound. Dr. D. said he is sorry. He left it up to me whether to wait out the natural process of miscarriage or to schedule a d&e.  I had a d&e last year after I loss the twin that wasn’t in the tube and within 2 days fell into several ppd. So I have opted for natural this time. I am hoping and praying for no complications. This is really hard to walk out. But it really is hard either way.

Several people in the community told me that they found out that I am pregnant from overhearing some people from my church gossiping about me.( I did not announce my pregnancy yet.)  Normally I am used to hearing this type of thing, I have even confronted several that I had felt taking their “praying for you” in the wrong direction.  I have expressed my disappointment in this type of behavior and disdain for it. Giving background information is okay if it helps you with prayer. Sizing up someone and offering your opinion about their life style is not okay. That is not of God and people involved in this type of behavior must repent. You murder with your mouth. [End of My Soapbox]

With all the deaths and news about the baby it has been a bit too much to deal with this situation at this moment,if at all. I need my resources and focus on other things and not some misbehaving people. So I am trying to shift my focus away from that. I took a couple of week break away from our church for some serious soul searching, free worship and to figure out what God wants me to do with all that is going on.

My cousin Mario died last Wednesday and we buried him this Wednesday. It was a traditional Catholic funeral. I miss my Catholic roots. I missed my family from every where that I haven’t seen in person for awhile {only on facebook}.

The Father

This has been a rough week. Last Saturday a friend died. He was out volunteering planting trees and had a massive heart attack. My husband and I were in shock this entire week. Over this alone without everything else going on. Rob was one of the first people to walk up and introduce himself to me when I first visited my church. He was a very honest and genuine and goofy man. He and his wife have consoled me through my many losses, they truly understand and told me it is okay to grieve regardless of the stage I have been at. When others told me to just get over it and be happy you have some healthy living children. Unless he heard the rumors, Rob died without knowing about this child. My husband said maybe they entered heaven together and that made me smile.

Week of May 1st,2011

This week was Teacher’s appreciation week at Noah’s school. David went to open gym this week with his bball players.

I attended Mommy and me muffins with Noah at his school.

Muffins and Mommy

The week was really busy with planting and cooking and grocery shopping and laundry, you know every day stuff in a large family household.

Week of April 24th,2011

Saamy’s First Communion Was Sunday. WE enjoyed a nice family meal and a day outside. Our whole family was there and on time and it was a great day.

On the 25th I had an ultrasound and saw our baby’s heart beating.

Tuesday was a long “field trip” to the library. Jesse really misbehaved. He is usually good. More training needed, I  suppose.

I saw my hematologist on Friday. My hemoglobin and ferritin levels are finally within a normal range.

We went to Genera’s viewing Friday night and funeral on Saturday

It was nice seeing a lot of family that we have not seen in a  while.

The Girls with their "little" cousin

The church fixed us a meal and we were able to hang out and fellowship after the graveyard service.

Week of April 17th 2011

We attended Palm Sunday’s Service as Res. Sam had his last First Communion class.

We were busy this week with Noah on spring break. Lots of playing,reading,coloring,building,planting. Noah loves dirt and digging. Summer will be fun.

David went to open gym and played basketball with his bball buddies.

I returned for my followup EENT appointment. I still continue to have a significant hearing loss. They said I would benefit having hearing aids.

We received a phone call telling us to go see Genera she was in intensive care with pneumonia and not doing well at all.  We were able to visit her twice before her passing.


We have been overwhelming busy and I love to blog. I am going to do several blog posts to “catchup” the past month.

We have been busy!

Jesse on Kayla's bed


Today a spent some time planting flowers in  my front yard.

I bought 4 6packs of  purple/ fuchsia petunias at 50 cent per 6 pack.

I have seedlings I am growing and plant to plant in various places around my yard.

Hey?? It is Spring… Isn’t it??

What happened to spring?? We were in shorts and flip-flops last week, were we not? We had summer in the winter. Now winter in the spring? I am sitting here typing and it’s  43 degrees outside and 60 in here brrrr.

I dropped the girls and Noah off at school. The other boys and I spent the day doing school and baking. I made banana chocolate chip muffins and sweet potato chocolate chip muffins. I made shredded barbecue chicken, homemade macaroni and cheese and steamed broccoli for dinner.

Samuel is reading well. He hates…HATES when I have them practice handwriting. He says it’s so boring. I told him neat handwriting is important. Noah has really neat handwriting for a 4-year-old boy. It is scary to me that he has such attention to details. They work on handwriting together,at snack time after school, at the kitchen table, while I whip them up something to munch on.

IT was peaceful today..Cold..Cold..Cold..Peaceful.

Ronnie came home in a bad mood. I’m not sure completely why yet. He has been coughing a lot again. I hope his bronchitis has not returned. I think I’ll pick up the medicine the doctor wrote for him that he has not taken… See if I can MAKE him take it now? I wish I could persuade him to cover his mouth when he coughs. With my asthma, I tend to want to avoid rooms he is coughing in, I fear becoming sick and unable to care for my family. It has happened before. My home never recovers completely from my illnesses.  I have to scrub hard to get through all the layers of  dirt.

Well I suppose I shouldn’t  ‘go there’ should I?

Me and my never-ending list of rhetorical questions.

Food Waste Friday

March 12th was a lone shriveled moldy sweet potato.

March 19th was a smorgasbord  for the dogs. I’m not sure what because I was bedridden with a toothache. My darling husband cleaned out the refrigerator, but he doesn’t do pictures.

March 25th, No food waste, but I do have some things to use up this week.