I have definitely been super über busy. I want to document this time in my life so I may remember how God moves in HIS timing. Also seeing how things look so very odd from the outside, even to me, I see HIS hands in our lives. Everything isn’t easy, I do have peace in the midst of it all.
R has been working a few weeks now I think for an agency as a contracted temp to hire. We are still behind in bills, but at least we have a chance to catch up with income coming in. He works a swing shift. It is now 2 weeks on a shift before switching. Next week is night shift.Since we have one car….
( his died….their is an entire ordeal surrounding his car that makes me to angry to detail… short version.. his/our nephew took it apart to pieces and sold them. The carcass sat in our driveway a few weeks before I called a junk yard to haul it away. We could have gotten a few hundred dollars had we sold it a junk yard originally. Instead of giving much-needed money away when R wasn’t working and causing an eyesore to our neighborhood. I felt sick every single time I went outside until I had the thing removed!)
I have been on the road a lot. I have had lots of time to pray alone and quiet times with God. We are spending too much on gas and putting lots of miles on the van. R HAS A JOB!! PTL!! YIPPEE SKIPPEE!! So I can not complain. I just count on God to get me through the day. Some times I am so tired. It has been great to have 2 weeks worth of meals preplanned. I religiously use my crockpot. I have found some wonderful recipes online for healthy meals.
My current life is a series of notes and notebooks. My little boys are officially in Classical Conversations. I felt led to join or try knowing at the time R had no job and we are in dire circumstances. When praying felt led to join anyways. I thought maybe we would be able to officially join by Christmas and told the Director this. God laid it on the heart of an anonymous donor to pay for the two little boys to join now! I have started unofficially teaching the older boys at home. I could not even imagine what God had in store for our family. I just knew that this is where he wants us. The same with staying home with the children. I have felt bad for months even though I felt a sense of peace in my decision. R agree also. That I belong at home with the children. Some people no longer speak to me because of my choices and feel I have taken this have faith thing a little too far.
I am finding a sort of freedom in being alone. No pressures from the outside.
I have a collection of notes I will peruse and decide if they are post worthy.